my life in a nutshell: Long Distance Relationships

I seem to spend a lot of my time waiting. Waiting for the next time, waiting to say goodbye, waiting to feel that special 'together' feeling again, waiting?for good news, waiting?to hear back.?Sometimes I worry this 'helps' me forget to appreciate the?good ?in my real world. I wrote a similar piece on this when I had just returned from America, being aware that being lucky enough to live two lives comes with both pros and cons. It is up to me to carefully?juggle the waiting game between?fulfilling my time in this 'world', before eventually moving to the other and it is on days like today, that I struggle to find the balance.

I have waited?4 months for 1, and enjoyed 4 weeks of what I had waited the 4 months for. But now, today I'm left waiting for the next 5 weeks to hurry up so I can then enjoy 4 days. Then another 6 weeks?to enjoy 1, and then 4 weeks to finally enjoy a long summer. But what about the days inbetween? I study hard, work hard, all to make sure that when the time comes, I can then enjoy the time I've waited for. But this scares me. That suddenly I'll be 40, looking back, and wondering what I did on all those days inbetween.

The up side is that everytime that we are together, it is like falling in love all over again, but similarly, the end of a trip?means saying goodbye all over again. And that is something I am quickly learning, I will never get used to.

I have some very exciting things to look forward to in the coming months, and I think I need to focus very hard on the 'looking forward to' rather than 'waiting for'. This might help me to appreciate what I have here and now, instead of what I could have in a years time.

I really should start writing a diary of what I've done every day - it's just very difficult to find the time. Perhaps even one world to sum up the day would do.

3.2.13 : Empty

Source: http://lucy-marias-thoughts.blogspot.com/2013/02/long-distance-relationships.html

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